Small Town Girl
Thursday, September 3, 2015
Almost
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Living Life in Reverse
When I was four years old, I was gripped by an existential question, Who am I? I would ask this question to everyone I met. People would point to their bodies, their hearts, their heads and I would drive them up the wall by saying, but that’s your body, who are you?
Now, at this age, I crave for bags & shoes and make up.
Till I was 16, I used to keep my hair really really tied up. I thought open hair was a sign of bondage, of submission to tradition, of conformity to male ideals of beauty. My subversive streak did not last too long. Two pairs of shoes in one month. I now drool, literally drool at the sight of pretty pumps. Why am I becoming shallower with every passing minute?
At 13 I had read Maxim Gorky’s Mother twice and knew Russian revolution like the back of my hand. Now, I know the Russians and Americans but stay away from any revolution unless its in fashion or makeup area. Is Delhi to blame? Soon, I might evaporate into nothingness.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
A saturday spent just as I like it .....
Piercing !!
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Back after a hiatus...
They were some of the most difficult months of my life. I lost the one I thought I loved and who I thought loved me back. However, I believe now it was all for good. No point crying over spilt milk ;)
I had tremendous issues in my job, gained back the entire 50 pounds I had lost.
Hopefully all that is the past now ! I am back to stay. I survived some of the unbearable times ( believe me, no melodrama here) :)
Some of my blogger pals kept me involved in life by their writings. And as a thanks to them, I will try and write fairly regularly.
Thank You God and Thank You Blog Pals........ May you always have an amazing life. Thanks for being my support.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Birthday Weekend
Being born on the 4th of July, I share it with US and a fellow blogger Isabelle. Happy B'day to you Isabelle !
Introspection on my b'days is a usual thing for last 5 - 6 years. I always end up evaluating what I did in past year and what I should be doing in the coming.
In the coming year, I am very much after changing my single status. Thats the gift I need from God and I need all your best wishes !
I love birthdays but find it v sad to grow one more year still a single woman.
I know, I have a happy full life but it would have been nice if I had that certain some one to share the special days / moments with !
On a happy note, both my sisters and my adorable niece are coming over to celebrate by bday. They are coming 2 days early and will continue to be in Delhi till 6th. On 7th we all drive down to the hometown to celebrate my dad's 60th birthday !
It is after 6 years that all 3 of us are together and I am really looking forwards to the weekend with delight !
This time last year, I was struggling to keep up a relationship which was taking its last breaths and that too only because I was giving it resuscication.
My ex's mother and I shared our birthday and she really hated thatso much so it is not hard to imagine her hating me sharing her son's life :)
However, on this birthday, I have no worries about things like past year and I am really looking forwards to spending the day with people I love the best.
Thank You God for a WONDERFUL family. I do not say it often enough but I am doing so now.
Thank You so MUCH !
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Living Life in Reverse
The last few months have brought me plenty of news and an epiphany.
Friends and acquaintances are getting new jobs, quitting old ones for new ones, quitting old ones for restlessness or starting their own businesses or moving things to the next level.
Former proteges are growing up and proving it.
Almost everyone I know from my circle is switching jobs, cities or countries; some moving closer to their dreams, others entrenching themselves in sinful living.
Summing up, everyone is moving forward.
I, on the other hand, seem to be living life in reverse.
When I was four years old, I was gripped by an existential question, Who am I? I would ask this question to everyone I met. People would point to their bodies, their hearts, their heads and I would drive them up the wall by saying, but that’s your body, who are you?
Now, at this age, I have almost started feeling as if a man is what bags & shoes & make up he / she uses.
As an eighteen year-old, I religiously attended classes and saw myself in NASA as an outstanding scientist. As a professional these days, I giggle, make jokes & dream myself in exotic vacation places.
Moving up in life? I quit a fabulous consulting job to become an over worked banker in a second grade bank (I am not kidding, I mean it !) as I thought it was a great move.
From Dom Perignon to two-buck chucks has been a lovely ride indeed! Almost as much fun as my weight loss !
Till I was 16, I used to keep my hair really really tied up. I thought open hair was a sign of bondage, of submission to tradition, of conformity to male ideals of beauty.
My subversive streak did not last too long. Two pairs of shoes in one month. I now drool, literally drool to look a hot babe. Why am I becoming shallower with every passing minute?
At 13 I had read Maxim Gorky’s Mother twice and knew Russian revolution like the back of my hand. Now, I know the Russians and Americans but stay away from any revolution unless its in fashion or makeup area.
Is Delhi to blame? If so, Soon, I might evaporate into nothingness.
At times I wonder, are you allotted just a certain measure of maturity? What if I used it all up as an annoying over-smart kid? Do I resign myself to a lifetime of finding joy in bubble wrap, silly crushes and chocolate cookies?